Friday, March 26, 2010

Uuuuuuugh

Music: Natureboy (they're really good - especially Heart to Fool)

This is so much suck. Unbelievable quantities of suck. Woke up this morning with like stomach flu or food poisoning or some crap like that. Spent my first two or three hours up alternating between lying on the couch and hovering over the toilet bowl.

If it's food poisoning, what the hell have I eaten recently that could have given me that?

If it's flu (which I kinda doubt since I thought flu season was over by now mostly), then gahh! Stupid flu. Although, come to think of it, I did have a really long, involved and weird dream all last night that I kept thinking I was waking out of, only to still be in it over and over.

Woah, maybe I was having crazy fever dreams?....

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Non-Resolute

Music: the silence of the morning (maybe I should put something on)

So, I never do new year's resolutions. Well, that's not entirely tre, I probably was told to make them on some years in the past when I was a kid - they seem to feel that this is another one of the yearly traditions that you should make kids take part in in elementary school. Making resolutions to improve yourself at this one specific part of the year that you don't really plan to keep, just cause all the other people are seems weird. But I don't currently, and haven't for years and never did when it was not up to me.

Except...

Second week of January, I joined a gym and have made myself rules about the minimum frrequency I am allowed to go to it - even have a gym pact with my friend Holly where if one of us misses a week, they owe the other lunch.

And last week of December, I started trying to teach myself to play the piano. All throughout my childhood we had to learn one instrument or another and I often resented my parents for it. Since then I have on occasion decided "I am going to learn to play X", and would get hold of it, play for a couple of months or so and then stop. Except this time I seem more focused on it.

But these are not new year's resolutions. Sure, They are things that I resolved to do. And they do all fall into similar groups to a lot of resolutions. And they both happened within two weeks of new years. But that was all totally coincidental. The gym membership was a gift for christmas, and piano playing motivation came from seeing my family a lot over the holidays. And since many of them play music and bust the instruments out at any large gathering, it was making me wish that I played an instrument again.

So, aside from being at the same time as new years resolutions and having the same sort of content as new years resolutions, this was all just a fluke and most assuredly not a new years resolution.

Definitely not.

It was a fluke.

I swear...

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Allons-y

Music: me bashing away at a piano hoping some semblance of music comes out. (it's nice to dream. one of these days it'll sound better)

Hello citizens of Blogonia.

Meant to do this a bit ago, but I am doing it now. Finally getting around to starting to write stuff up here again. I took a break of a while, then started a tumblr account instead, then discovered I don't really like tumblr and it has taken me this much time to get back to writing here.

Although, to be fair, I do have a fair bit of shit going on at the moment.

Currently that involves the Plan(tm) to quit my job in the fall (or at least cut back hours to just a shift or two a week), and then go back to school full-time starting then. The Plan(tm) says U of T for physics or physics/comp-sci.

So says the Plan(tm).

Of course the Plan(tm) is still waiting on U of T telling me whether or not they are going to let me in or not. Here's hoping for yes. But if I do get a no, I feel that I should then still quit my job and do something nice and big to shake up my life. Cause I am very notorious for falling into ruts, and I think I feel one growing here.

I need a change...